little did we know how to be what little we knew.
it's simple enough if you think about it
we borrowed our fair share of money
and bought a few loaves of bread

intertwined in darkness, all our grievences were met
our shadows sang a love song as we traded silhouettes
and the record played...the music made us understand
how we came to love each other through contempt of fellow man
and what was valid...role playing as the choosee and the chooser
and with these losses counted we began to plan the future
it didn't suit her...she said as she explained her woe to me
i was slow to see that she was saying no to we
and what we planned...which was a shock after so long
of sitting comfortably within our ever playing song
where the notes rolled from my tongue and were swallowed up by hers
and now i only hummed because i didn't know the words
and scraps of paper and doodles of artificial sunlight
couldn't shead illumination and make me get this one right
and now i have to satisfy myself just to make her believe
that the song is never ending; i have to fall in love with me

intertwined in darkness, all our grienvences were met
our shadows sang a love song as we traded silhouettes
only this time, we weren't even behind the same doors
but we still spoke the words as if we didn't need them any more

be well. you all need it more than i do.

Baited the hook and caught me a selfish
I'm gonna gut it, clean it, cook it, feed it to a she
And see if I can get her to need me

the more you suffer, the more it shows you really care...right?

yeah.

i thought it was about making up for lost time,
so i over did it...
then turned around and lost mine..

adjust your night-vision goggles, my dear, you have to see how green with envy i am.
they who hold your comp'ny and they who have your comp'ny in their thoughts plague me with their jeers and sneers and fears and beers, even.

of course, this is all in my head.
but then, so're you.
and i've lost all sense of purpose thanks to a simple reservation on the universe's part.
the universe has always been very good at beating me senseless with my own misunderstandings and hopes and beverages.

i will create a piece of art from your flower wrapping and perhaps i will redeem myself in the eyes of the angry gods.

i will draw on myself with permanent ink, more sharpie than you can imagine.
if only i wasn't such a wuss.

but do i really wish to be strong? weakness has it's benefits. the night keeps you company and the pillow dries your tears and somewhere, someone is thinking of you whether they are or not.

the only suicide note i ever wrote threw itself off a building before i could finish it. I had far too much sympathy for it's family to do the deed of course, and i could never kill napolean.

he liberated us, you understand, even though we didn't want to be liberated.
Ah, how the similarities of past and present (and gifts) haunt us.

my nails are far to short to scratch you in such a way that your itch will be satisfied. i'm growing them so that i can be satisfactory at best.

trip out to my television screen, theres nothing rock n roll can't fix.
then again, theres nothing hip hop can't fix.
oh, to know the difference between medical treatment and home remedies.
holding a boiling chickenwing to my forehead while singing Mary Had A Little Lamb never did ME any harm, even if it exposed me to beastiality a little early into our friendship, Yahweh and I.

erase each and every word i've said that have irked you. irk me back.
irk me baby, irk me, i love the way you irk me.

what what what????? i didn't mean irk like that. i meant it in a sexy way. what're you talking about? stop it!! stop!!

oh...so irking isn't sexy? damn, i must've been watching a soap opera. or wrestlemania 3.

let's dance the night away baby, it isn't good for anything else but you, me and the weather.

my eilish is home =)

`You slept through the last small town,
I'll wake you up when the next one comes around.
Your eyes are closed, like you truly believe
You're safe and sound with me

No looking back, no turning into salt.
The city was crumbling but, baby, we're not to fault.
When things got too rough, I promised you we'd leave.
You're safe and sound with me.

You're safe and sound with me,
Just like you always will - just like you always will be.

The wipers clear the windshield of the rain.
My shirt sleeve dries your eyes the very same.
We fit together like the ignition and the key.
You're safe and sound with me.

You're safe and sound with me,
Just like you always will - just like you always will be.

You're safe and sound with me,
Just like you always will - just like you always will be.

The glove box light shines bright enough to see.
You read the map like you were reading poetry.
And it just might take you forever to see,
That you're safe and sound with me. ` -hawksley workman

i miss you eilish
i love you

how can I sleep when I know I am awake?